Musings…

I have to do the right thing, Laura thought. She had come for a walk by the park, on a whim. It was autumn and the trees were raining leaves on passer-bys. The weather was just the perfect bit chilly, a slight nip in the air. This was her favorite season, the most comfortable. Since so many days she was suffering from guilt and anxiety. She could not believe that her heart was capable of such shamefulness. To think about another man when she was so completely loved by James. She thought her heart might break up with remorse. They were seeing each other since four years. All those beautiful moments. She thought she had found her share of heaven. Everything was going as well as it could. And then she met Daniel. Almost immediately she understood the meaning of love on first sight. She took up every chance she had of being around him. She was ashamed that she was not even trying to stay away from him. She could not bear to let James touch her now. She wondered about this emotion, how could it be so feeble. Four years of love blew away in the air. All she wanted now was to be with Daniel, with such urgency and desperation that she felt she would suffocate without him. Whatever this was, it was powerfully intense. Today she decided to confess to James. Break this news on him, but gently. He had to know he was loving someone who loved not him,

I wish I had never met James, she mused. Or I had met Daniel before. But is this love that is happening now? What I believed to be true love all this while was nothing but an illusion. How am I to be sure that this emotion of wanting is love? What if a couple of years from now I meet someone else and realize that there is yet a stronger love present. Why is it so complex…

2 comments:

hari said...

Oh boy! Here we go again... But i guess i have to share some of my thoughts too...

To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this...!

SO, stop writing on Love.. and you better hope that "HE" does not read this particular blog of yours
:P

raining words said...

Haha..very funny hari..but you see this "story" is entirely fictional! lol! Or else i wouldn't have posted it here!

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